Monthly Archives: June 2011

Life gives me writers block


Life gives me writers block. I don’t know how many blogs I’ve made and put my best foot forward to be the writer, the thought provoking illustrator of words I’ve always felt I could be. Then baam life hits! And then I lose my mind to say it truthfully.

My words disappear and life consumes me. I’ve felt eaten alive. Then somewhere I would give up. I gave up on me and my writing. I gave up on my dream to be what God put me in existence for, to be a voice, to show my skill, to put forth my ideals, my complex thoughts and structurally vivid dreams.

Given up is like an addiction. It’s so easy to do but so very hard to stop. I think after my sisters murder in 2007, given up on me became all to easy. And people would say well life goes on but life had truly stopped for me. Life existed but I was no longer apart of the world. I’ve been walking around detached, uninvolved and trying to find me but I had been really dissatisfied.

Dissatisfied with how cruel life is but people continue to love, give and appreciate. How can one go on when someone so dear is taken away. In such a horrendous way. I’ve been struggling with this question but then I look around me and I know I have to stop feeling sorry for myself.

My sister was not only taken from me but she was taken from her 14 year old son. Our mother and brother, and many friends and family members who adored her to pieces. My sister was loved and left this world loved. I think that is the best I will get from this tragedy.

Since that day on May 18, 2007. I’ve cocooned myself never wanting to be hurt like that again. Not by life, not by my mistakes, not by anyone. But in doing that I have only hurt myself and my sister. As I continue to shield myself from life, I only take away my chances of true happiness.

But that stops today. I’m grabbing a hold of what is stopping me, ME! I’m shaking myself back to consciousness and realizing my dreams, my worth, my desires, my goals. Oprah said it and many before her “Never give up.”

I’m going to take that advice as I have decided to move forward with my life. I’m shedding my shell and opening a new chapter. I vow to no longer let life take my writing away. I promise myself even when I am down I will find the strength to write another day. Writing brings me such relief and I should not turn myself away from that.

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Poetry: Awaken Mind


Waking up early,

going to bed late,

I’ve got trouble,

shuffling threw the madness,

that stirs my mind awake,

structuring better ideas,

planning new options,

solutions are my goal,

keeping to them my fall,

tumbling, rustlings, turning,

in my covers,

perception,

becomes tired,

wanting nothing but rest,

there will be none,

thinkers unresolved,

never sleep,

only nap,

life’s at the door knocking,

wants to come in,

steps seeming to slow,

movements, motion, progress, flow,

aren’t swift enough,

I hear my heart beat,

feeling hurried,

stumbling, 

in my mind,

I’m at a still,

I breath in deep,

exhaling back to the motion,

I stand,

as my brain continues to contrive,

sit at my desk,

and publish the thoughts in my mind.

By: Kizze’ 9/16/10

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Kizze Talks About: open poetry contest


Company

Award

Fee

Submission Date


Submission Address

American Literary Review
$1,000.00
$15.00
June 1 – October 1, 2011
American Literary Review Short Fiction Contest
P.O. Box 311307
University of North Texas
Denton, TX 76203-1307
America Poetry Journal
$500.00
$16.00
06/30/11
J. P. Dancing Bear, Editor
The American Poetry Journal
P. O. Box 2080
Aptos, CA 95001-2080.
IMPORTANT: Please make checks payable to:
Dream Horse Press LLC.
Antigonish Review
$600.00 + publication
09/01/11
The Antigonish Review Contest,
Box 5000,
St. Francis Xavier University,
Antigonish,
Nova Scotia, Canada,
B2G 2W5.
The 46er Prize for Poetry
$400.00 + publication
Entry fee is $5.00 for one poem, $8.00 for two poems, and $10.00 for three poems.
12/31/11
angela@blacklawrencepress.com
Philip Levine Prize
$2000.00 + publication
$25.00
09/03/11
Philip Levine Prize in Poetry
Department of English, Mail Stop PB98
5245 North Backer Avenue,
California State University, Fresno,
Fresno, CA  93740

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News: Palin’s emails released in bulk


Sarah Palin addressing the Republican National...

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After the much long-awaited release, Sarah Palin‘s emails are here. Journalist and news crews awaited the boxes upon boxes of the 25,000 emails at the state administrative building in Juneau this Friday.

It is beginning said that the emails show Palin’s hard work as Governor of Alaska during her term for 2006-2008.

The documents are being scanned by Times Data Desk to have them available online for all to view.

Read more about: Palin’s emails

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If I had a dollar for every weiner scandal…


A hot dog.

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If I had a dollar for every politician who stuck his wiener down the wrong hole, I could afford to run myself.

Before a man is a politician, he is a man. Although we as Americans think that politicians are going to be these saint like, money-saving, for the people individuals. In the end there only out for themselves.

We have to be realistic. We can’t keep going against the current that the tide is pushing. For whatever reason these people run for office knowing they have these secrets they don’t want anybody to know about, then they lie when it comes out, then they apologize when evidence is shown. Then they beg and in the end we forgive them. Sounds like a relationship to me.

So I’m not taking up for the man, but sometimes I think people do things just so they can be caught, cause other wise they would keep doing it even though they know it’s wrong. Some people have to be forced to stop and one of the people is Weiner.

I mean months ago there was a Twitter group warning people about Weiner’s wiener.

To read more: Report: Twitter group warned girls about Weiner

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