It’s during the night, I look at the empty space on the side of my bed, now filled with two bassinets and think about the two lives that will occupy them in the next month or so. It’s an unreal feeling to know I will be a parent again. I for so long saw and could only see me and my daughter. I mean almost 10 year later I’m starting over, and with twins no less.
But more than unreal I’m starting to get butterflies, which is pretty darn hard with two babies in my stomach. Every time I see an ultrasound I wonder how do they manage in there, but it’s all just a miracle.
I’ve had to step outside myself and step into a new me to take on this huge responsibility. I know that I have to put them first, whatever selfish parts I had left has gone to them. Now, I’m not perfect, and I have plenty of worry and stress. It’s not easy having to handle this situation on my own, but I have done my best to keep myself together and maintain my household with the child I already have.
So as I look at my babies bassinets, I care nothing more to be here for them, to care for there needs and to hold them when they cry. It’s going to be a total experience around here, new life, new hopes, new possibilities, new noises, new smells (eww) will lay in those bassinets.
Am I ready for the new adventure? Hell yes, why not! Lots of people are caught up in the adventure of careers and making society happy, but I’m caught up in this adventure called life. I will not let this opportunity slip me by, because there is nothing more rewarding, nothing more worthy, nothing more gracious in Gods eye’s then the making of family.
Life is nothing without people in it and to know life you must not only give yourself to the making of it, but you must be present in the rearing of it (life).
As I get bigger and the babies grow inside of me, I have to be a stronger mommy. I have to relearn and gain back all that energy, positivity and strength I had with my first child but times 2.
Sometimes, I can’t help but to feel down about the situation I’m in, but then when I imagine there little faces, fingers and toes, I am reminded that if nothing else I am blessed. Life seems to throw me many curve balls and I can say I haven’t done well with some of them. But with new life coming my way I’m ready to move on and do it on my own.
Happiness for my children and me is my main goal. So I’m looking forward to moving and starting a new life. Being closer to those who support me, finding old and new things that make me happy. Challenging myself to do better and creating a legacy that my child and there children can be proud of. I know it will not be easy but it will be worth every piece of effort I own.
To my only child for the past 9 yrs. things haven’t been easy but I assure you it will get better. You are so excited to see the babies as you have always wanted siblings. I know you will be a great sister and helper as you are a wonderful daughter. You more the anyone deserve the best. As we start this new chapter in our lives, I thank God for bringing you into minds.
I’m starting to show. So it’s time to start taking photo’s. I’ve been reading on how much weight I should gain and I’m not to happy about that. But that’s all a part of the process.
Pregnant with twins 11wks
I remember when I was pregnant with my daughter 9 yrs. ago the baby weight didn’t go away for sometime. But I believe I made one mistake that keep the baby weight hanging on. Before I left the hospital I had got on a the birth control called Depo-Provera. That kept me from losing any weight.
It took me two yrs. to realize I needed to get off the birth control. At the time I had been going to school and had a weight conditioning class 3 times a week and I went to the gym but I still wasn’t losing any weight. And I tell you within a month of getting off Depo I had lost so much weight.
So this time around I will be a wiser in the choices I make.
twins, two sacks
So when I found out I was having twins, I was about 9 wks. The picture to the left is of the two sacks. The doctor said that because the sacks are divided by a thick line in the middle it made it more likely that they will be fraternal twins.
Scientist refer to fraternal twins as dizygotic, involving the union of two eggs with two sperm to crate two embryos. As shown in picture below. “Twins, Agnew 7”
fraternal sperm embryos
So my hope is that I will have both a boy and girl or 2 boys. I have a daughter who is almost 9. yrs. We will see what happens.
So, I recently wrote that I was pregnant. Well I’ve found out I’m having twins. OMG! That’s what everybody has been saying.
When I went to my first GYN appointment twins was the furthest thing from my mind. I don’t know of any on my side of the family or on the fathers side, that has twins. I surely wasn’t taking any fertility pills, so OMG is right.
Although, about a week before I went to the doctor I had a conversation with my mother, about how I was feeling. I had been overly tired, aggressively hungry, and I had said to her “the way I’m feeling, It could be twins.” But that was one of those things you say, one of those things you blurt out but don’t mean!
But the funny was on me! At first it was total shock. I think me and my mothers emotions were felt all through the hospital, when the words “YOUR HAVING TWINS” flew out the doctors mouth without even a second thought. The doctor was unsure of whether to congratulate us or to say nothing at all and just go on like she never said anything..
After that initial moment of shock wore off we started to realize this was going to happen. Those TWINS are on their way. February 12, is coming and we better get ready.