As I get bigger and the babies grow inside of me, I have to be a stronger mommy. I have to relearn and gain back all that energy, positivity and strength I had with my first child but times 2.
Sometimes, I can’t help but to feel down about the situation I’m in, but then when I imagine there little faces, fingers and toes, I am reminded that if nothing else I am blessed. Life seems to throw me many curve balls and I can say I haven’t done well with some of them. But with new life coming my way I’m ready to move on and do it on my own.
Happiness for my children and me is my main goal. So I’m looking forward to moving and starting a new life. Being closer to those who support me, finding old and new things that make me happy. Challenging myself to do better and creating a legacy that my child and there children can be proud of. I know it will not be easy but it will be worth every piece of effort I own.
To my only child for the past 9 yrs. things haven’t been easy but I assure you it will get better. You are so excited to see the babies as you have always wanted siblings. I know you will be a great sister and helper as you are a wonderful daughter. You more the anyone deserve the best. As we start this new chapter in our lives, I thank God for bringing you into minds.
12 wk ultrasound baby a n b
When your pregnant you have to make all of these decisions about this and that. So one of the decision I had to make was to take a prenatal test
which is a blood test that can be combined with a special ultrasound (called a nuchal translucency) that examines the area at the back of the baby’s neck for increased fluid or thickening. Usually done between 10 to 13 weeks.
The reason for the test is to check for Down syndrome and other chromosomal problems.
I decided to have the test, #1 because I’m having twins and because when I was pregnant with my daughter my blood levels where high and there was cause for concern by the doctors. Every thing turned out fine but I was able to know that before she was born.
So at twelve wks. I have the ultrasound done in combination with a blood test I had take a week prior. The results came out negative for Down syndrome. So that is a relief having two babies is already going to be enough. I just want everything to go well.
I’m starting to show. So it’s time to start taking photo’s. I’ve been reading on how much weight I should gain and I’m not to happy about that. But that’s all a part of the process.
Pregnant with twins 11wks
I remember when I was pregnant with my daughter 9 yrs. ago the baby weight didn’t go away for sometime. But I believe I made one mistake that keep the baby weight hanging on. Before I left the hospital I had got on a the birth control called Depo-Provera. That kept me from losing any weight.
It took me two yrs. to realize I needed to get off the birth control. At the time I had been going to school and had a weight conditioning class 3 times a week and I went to the gym but I still wasn’t losing any weight. And I tell you within a month of getting off Depo I had lost so much weight.
So this time around I will be a wiser in the choices I make.
twins, two sacks
So when I found out I was having twins, I was about 9 wks. The picture to the left is of the two sacks. The doctor said that because the sacks are divided by a thick line in the middle it made it more likely that they will be fraternal twins.
Scientist refer to fraternal twins as dizygotic, involving the union of two eggs with two sperm to crate two embryos. As shown in picture below. “Twins, Agnew 7”
fraternal sperm embryos
So my hope is that I will have both a boy and girl or 2 boys. I have a daughter who is almost 9. yrs. We will see what happens.
So, I’m having a baby. Which I’m very happy about. I have a little girl who is 8 and she has wanted a sibling for a while.
The difference this time is I will be doing it alone. Which is the sad part. I of course wanted to be in the situation where the father was there. But unfortunately after 4 years in a relationship with the man I am now pregnant by, I realized he doesn’t want to have responsibility and a family.
I’m not mad. I just figure it is his loss as I know that me and my unborn child are worth the love and happiness. Now I can only focus on the beautiful bundle of joy that awaits me in 6 months. And although things in life don’t go as you plan, I’m sure God will grant me the true family I desire in time.
I have to say, I am very appreciative of my mother as I go through this journey. She is very positive about the situation. I told her I’m going to be breaking the “curse” she put on her children. She had three kids and we all had only one child of our own. So I am the only one left to be able to have a child. So it is very exciting for us. I know this baby will be loved extremely.
So, I say to the father, it’s your loss!