It’s during the night, I look at the empty space on the side of my bed, now filled with two bassinets and think about the two lives that will occupy them in the next month or so. It’s an unreal feeling to know I will be a parent again. I for so long saw and could only see me and my daughter. I mean almost 10 year later I’m starting over, and with twins no less.
But more than unreal I’m starting to get butterflies, which is pretty darn hard with two babies in my stomach. Every time I see an ultrasound I wonder how do they manage in there, but it’s all just a miracle.
I’ve had to step outside myself and step into a new me to take on this huge responsibility. I know that I have to put them first, whatever selfish parts I had left has gone to them. Now, I’m not perfect, and I have plenty of worry and stress. It’s not easy having to handle this situation on my own, but I have done my best to keep myself together and maintain my household with the child I already have.
So as I look at my babies bassinets, I care nothing more to be here for them, to care for there needs and to hold them when they cry. It’s going to be a total experience around here, new life, new hopes, new possibilities, new noises, new smells (eww) will lay in those bassinets.
Am I ready for the new adventure? Hell yes, why not! Lots of people are caught up in the adventure of careers and making society happy, but I’m caught up in this adventure called life. I will not let this opportunity slip me by, because there is nothing more rewarding, nothing more worthy, nothing more gracious in Gods eye’s then the making of family.
Life is nothing without people in it and to know life you must not only give yourself to the making of it, but you must be present in the rearing of it (life).
Being that I’m pregnant and single I don’t feel that my pregnancy should stop me from dating. I mean with all the stress there is in life I deserve to be able to go out and have some fun especially when my body is up to it. I don’t think I should allow my current state to determine my womanhood. Being that I am a woman and I still have desires.
I feel that it very important to maintain that separateness from being pregnant and being a woman. I still love to go out and enjoy myself, I still enjoy the company of a man, going to social gatherings and mingling. Right now there is a dance class I want to join and I need a partner. Which I think would be a great outlet for me, keep me active while I’m pregnant and keep me social.
There may be only so much I can do but the doesn’t mean I have to just sit alone and wait until the babies come. I think being happy and enjoying ones self is the best thing you can do when you pregnant.
As I get bigger and the babies grow inside of me, I have to be a stronger mommy. I have to relearn and gain back all that energy, positivity and strength I had with my first child but times 2.
Sometimes, I can’t help but to feel down about the situation I’m in, but then when I imagine there little faces, fingers and toes, I am reminded that if nothing else I am blessed. Life seems to throw me many curve balls and I can say I haven’t done well with some of them. But with new life coming my way I’m ready to move on and do it on my own.
Happiness for my children and me is my main goal. So I’m looking forward to moving and starting a new life. Being closer to those who support me, finding old and new things that make me happy. Challenging myself to do better and creating a legacy that my child and there children can be proud of. I know it will not be easy but it will be worth every piece of effort I own.
To my only child for the past 9 yrs. things haven’t been easy but I assure you it will get better. You are so excited to see the babies as you have always wanted siblings. I know you will be a great sister and helper as you are a wonderful daughter. You more the anyone deserve the best. As we start this new chapter in our lives, I thank God for bringing you into minds.
13 wks pregnant with twins
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When your pregnant you have to make all of these decisions about this and that. So one of the decision I had to make was to take a prenatal test
which is a blood test that can be combined with a special ultrasound (called a nuchal translucency) that examines the area at the back of the baby’s neck for increased fluid or thickening. Usually done between 10 to 13 weeks.
The reason for the test is to check for Down syndrome and other chromosomal problems.
I decided to have the test, #1 because I’m having twins and because when I was pregnant with my daughter my blood levels where high and there was cause for concern by the doctors. Every thing turned out fine but I was able to know that before she was born.
So at twelve wks. I have the ultrasound done in combination with a blood test I had take a week prior. The results came out negative for Down syndrome. So that is a relief having two babies is already going to be enough. I just want everything to go well.